Okay, I know I'm supposed to cast all my cares on God because he cares for me. And that I should not worry because if God feeds the birds of the air, then he cares for me even more... But nevertheless, I'm scared. So I thought it might be a good practice to write it down and get it out. I'll do this in bullet form:
- Labor and delivery: Goodness I hope I realize when I go into labor? Little twinges and pains I'm having right now immediately set off the "Is this it?" thought in my head. I just need patience to wait on the real deal.
- Pain: how bad will L&D pain be? Can I handle it? It seems people's experiences are so varied and I'm just praying I handle it okay. I wonder if I'll be able to relax during contractions to help reduce the pain, or if I'll be too wound up? And I'm praying it won't last too long. Can I please be one of the lucky ones to have a shorter labor? : )
- Modesty: seriously, I'm not looking forward to L&D for this reason. I know millions of women have done this before. But goodness, I hope I can maintain some modesty during the process. I'm afraid I'll worry so much about this that I won't relax like I should. My mom keeps reassuring me that I won't care about this once I'm in labor. I hope she's right!
- Breastfeeding: will I be able to do it? Will it hurt? Will I have the energy when I'm really sleep deprived during the first days and weeks? My plan is to sleep as much as I can when the baby sleeps. We'll see how that works out. I tend to get pretty wound up which makes it hard to sleep. I'm praying I can relax though... (there's that word again, relax)
- Lack of sleep: how will I cope? I need my sleep and get really emotional and bent out of shape when I'm tired. I don't want to lash out at Isaac or other loved ones because I'm tired. And I want to enjoy being home with the baby.
That's a good list for now. I'm sure I'll add to it over time. But for now, I'm off to work. Thanks for letting me share. I appreciate your prayers. I need them!
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Matthew 11:28-30
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Love you girl. He is with you and cares infinitely for your best - rest in that.
Okay, if you were not worried at all I would be concerned you do not understand what's going to happen over the next few weeks.
You will know when you are really in labor long before you need to head to the hospital. :)
You run marathons, so you can handle the pain. Relaxing really does make it better. And there is a wonderful doctor on call called the anesthesiologist if you decide you need some help.
Lack of sleep was really tough for me. I took naps so I would not be mean to Chris. Have Isaac get the baby ready for bed while you get yourself ready for bed. You can feed the baby, Isaac can put him down while you get to bed too. We also would not let Doodlebug go more than 3 hours from the start of one meal to the start of the next during the day. If he was sleeping at the 3 hour mark I woke him up to feed him. That way he slept his longest stretch during the night and I got some sleep then too.
You will do great my friend.
I worry about the same things Andrea - especially about the lack of sleep. Actually, that's the one I worry about the most ... because I'm a monster when I haven't had my sleep.
We'll get through this :) We can do it!!
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