Going back to work...

for the first time since Friday. I've been under the weather. Although I did manage to work from home Tuesday as I was in conference call heaven (not really). I really dread going back but I'm TRYING really hard to have a good attitude and to stay calm about everything. But truthfully, I'm struggling a lot. Seriously, it feels like the world is on my shoulders. Ultimately I'm the one who is "responsible" for the success of this project. Although, I know that shouldn't be the case. I truly know why God gave us Christian community--so we don't feel alone in this world. Unfortunately, many of my coworkers don't share the same in the work world. Ugh. : (

My anxiety has been over the top lately. I even got a little anxious about the hardware floor installation guy that's coming over on Saturday to do our dining room floor. It will be fine! Why do I worry about it?

I went for a walk to the grocery store to return a redbox movie (Secret Life of Bees--must see) after work last night. Exercise definitely helps. But I can't remember another time in my life when I've been so anxious.

So I am praying the serenity prayer, and asking for the peace that passes all understanding to guard my heart and mind. And to cast all my cares on Him because he cares for me... and to be like the birds of the air who don't worry about what they will eat or drink because God cares for them... I just need this knowledge to seep deep, deep into my heart. My prayer today:

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4: 6-7)